My Country, People & Culture : Fish, thirsty in water

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Underlining Question: What made me dropout the Permanent Residency of Europe?
          When I took ticket back for Nepal, every one was surprised, shocked, amazed, and were asking ; what made me leave this land ? They were murmuring " every one dies to be here, people pay huge sum of money just to appear in this land, and stupid you, what happened to you? are you ok ?" And I answered " I am missing the dust of Kathmandu, chaos, strikes, and beautiful sunshine that would wake up Mt. Everest, worlds fast running rivers, streams, and plane tarai.  My peoples who are fighting in name of race, cast, religion: I miss them. Though its chaotic but its my land and my people. A conscious being like us who have seen the world and are aware and act like universal citizen, we are the one who needs to be there and act to make a change. I have not much to do here, my people need me". And I kissed that beautiful land of Sweden, tore the paper of permanent residency and silently left for Nepal. As Osho Says "Home is where the heart is, and my heart is with you".  Here I'd share the insight that enlightened me and made me come back home, where I belong.

           Candle enlightens the world but can't delete the darkness beneath it, as if fish remaining thirsty in the water. I had the same feeling for my country, people and culture, when I went far-far away from my land. Until we are in the land of origin we think the world out side is more better then ours. Money is flying in the air, just here where I am is not perfect, rest of the world is perfect. And that reminds me of many tragedy out there : When I saw a children leaving home after being 18 and feeling ashamed to live with parents, when I saw peoples living just alone with cat and dog, begging and putting pamphlet in street asking  for some one to come and celebrate Christmas with them, when I saw old peoples given full care by government but not out of love but just as a job without compassion, when I meet hundreds of friends having breakups more then 15 times and still not satisfied and in search of new one, when I saw people in Europe can only farm and grow for 3 to 5 months, when I saw whole country being dark and gloomy for more then 7 months, covered with snow and reaching the peak of development, that reminded my warm and bright country with great culture, And that was moment I got an Epiphany of me as fish thirsty in water.  

When I saw the whole generation of Europe and America chanting hare Krishna mantra and more then 71% of college graduates doing yoga & meditating, when I saw tear rolling down when they heard I was from the country of Himalaya, Shiva, Krishna, Rama & Buddha and saw the dyeing passion to touch this secret land where river is praised as mother ganga, stone are worshiped as Shaligram, Pipal & Tulsi plant are worshiped, monkey are worshiped as lord Hanuman, cow are worshiped as mother Laxmi, birds are worshiped as Garuda, where every thing is just holy, life to death and hence have a great mystery and science behind it. And that was moment I got an Epiphany of me as fish thirsty in water.

In one hand I heard the song "Imagine" by John Lennon to unite world and stop war, discrimination, and hatred rather create a Utopian society of love, harmony & compassion which resembles the Vedic mantra "Vashudhaiva Kutumbakam" meaning the world is one family. Having this feeling underneath in my heart I felt to heal the wound of my peoples and society where more then 40 thousand energetic youth leave this country per month and is growing by huge amount. I was wondering can I heal this big wound of our society being empty without any youth and left aside with old and sick generation without any new thought and ideas. And inspired my self with a feeling of Is it right to run far-far away saying there is no opportunity and political instability to the comfort zone of abroad? That would be wrong decision rather being in this panic zone of instability in every sector and instead of blaming other uniting together and sharing the knowledge of entrepreneurship would enlighten us. One can feed, cloth, shelter but will it be enough for whole life? But by educating how to create food, cloth and shelter many can grow above. And collectively we make a change.

When I am reminded that the last structure build in Patan Durbar Squire was on 1618 A.D. when there was no such country called USA, and pitiful thing is that now to repair this Squire we are asking grant from USA, in 1924 Nepal abolished 62 thousand slaves were abolished using fund from Pashupatinath Temple, at that time, there was no such UNDP (1950)  in existence. In business we learn that for a success first thing is location, and just when I looked at the map of Nepal a country of 1.38 billion people in north whose economy is growing 11% per annum and of 1.31 billion people in south whose economy is growing 9% per annum, and I wonder is that a bad location to be for success? If we place two glass of hot water and put a small glass of cold water in middle how long will small glass remain cold? Whether we like it or not three glasses will reach the same temperature in a while. How long will Nepal claim to be a poor country. Its not possible to surround by growth and remain not growing . One small candle can show the path of mile, there is no need of light to show hundred miles at a time, small-small tiny steps will make change gradually, by sharing knowledge one can't be small rather will grow more wise and will create the great collective consciousness of awareness.  Until and unless we stop blaming          other will never solve the problem, As Anil Chitrakar says "rather stepping in Panic Zone from Comfort Zone will lead us to Magic Zone". We must not try to fallow other rather find new ways matching our own nature and circumstances. As Einstein quotes "Everyone is a genius, but if you judge a fish on its ability to climb a tree, it will live its whole life believing that it is stupid". We can abolish the poverty, develop country, but to do so only one essential thing is we should unite and from individuality to collectivity  and do things collectively. And this wisdom made me come home. Home is where the heart is my heart is with Nepal. 

Travelling and Knowing the Self

As I was travelling, the Sun was same which shined in its full beauty from the Himalayas of Nepal, from the rocky mountains of India and set exactly the same way in the deep sea at Swedish archipelago. The Moon was running in its own cycle in exactly same way ... but the different was the land, its vegetation and the heads where their light fell on. Water that I drank was all of same property of cooling and reliving from thirst.  I still remember the sweetness in smell of Danish snowy wind and fishlike order of wind blowing in the tsunami hit villages of South Indian coast of Indian Ocean.

When I fled up and up more up high in the sky and saw the great Himalayan range in the North of Nepal, white snow seemed as if it was decorating the green valleys and hills like garland, there was no border which can differentiate that another side of the Himalaya is Tibet, nor the green great plane land was saying any thing about India and Nepal border. The whole world was without border, at that time "I felt so jealous of birds and animals! who roam here and there freely all around without any visa or passport, and felt ashamed of being a human for creating boarders and differentiating between the nation and human."   

I have travelled many villages and cities of Europe mostly Sweden, Denmark, Germany, Holland, Belgium, Thailand, India and of course Nepal where I was born. In this great journey of my life I have tasted so many different foods, touched so many different land forms, walked in exhausting dry desert and freezing snowy roads, I have felt too many shades of wind in my face, and have swamped in different ocean which actually is one and just have different name from the different part of world, which surrounds this earth from all around but can't really see the earth making difference in anything it's offering to us. Earth is so unconditionally in love with all of beings, either small insect or huge whale. It has provided everything to all who reside here with right temperature and food. Camel in desert is blessed with great art of living in thirsty environment and it has given a long sleeping ability to panda in Himalayas to rest in peace and wait for new grass to grow. Frogs are blessed with art of living in dry days to wait the rainy season.  

Yes, bird looks different than champagnes and human looks different than insects, we all look different in color, shape and size but we all came from the same source to this existence. It's possible that we can't talk each others' language, but we all have feeling of love and compassion which binds us and unites us. It's natural that in this eco-system, frog eats insects and frog is eaten by snake and tiger eats deer and so on but we all are the creation of same existence. We are so similar in the level of feeling, we all need family, friends and want to live in a community of our own. It's so hard to understand that we are connected from deep within, scientists are saying so loudly for ages that we all are connected with the same thread of nature in this existence.  

I am a musician by profession, I have composed many songs on love, tragedy and patriotism. I always thought for my people and my country, actually never thought globally. As I travelled and saw many countries and people living there, I couldn't see any difference in us, than language and skin, rest was all same we all love to be loved, everyone wants to have some sort of belongingness and cared for. I couldn't see the different sky, sun or moon. Actually I was quite amazed when I landed in Denmark for the first time and knew that this land was called Copenhagen, Denmark. It surprised and gave me a great insight of how can land be different when it is connected in every aspect with my part of world. While flying in Sky there was no any means to differentiate that, above which country was I flying. Once going to Germany by car from Denmark suddenly a text came in my mobile saying "now you are in Germany and you are most welcome in our land" that just shocked me because there was not even a border check or any gate or such thing with any police, which made me think if we live in peace we don't need any police and boarders. 

Till this date I haven't found any individual human in earth who says that he only loves his family and country, I have met so many open minded people in this great journey with great heart to unite this world and be a universal citizen. But if you visit the mass of people following any political leader, any sect of religion or a group of some cast or color then you will find many group of people hating others group and loving only own. So we should know deeply within that we are fragmented in heart by these selfish leaders, politicians and exploiting philosophies. I dream and wish we will unite once again in the name of Humanity and bind our heart and soul and rise above cast, creed, color of skin,  country and make our time the best era in whole history of this earth.   

So travel my friend! Travel! And know this earth more closely from your heart, as all the rivers from Himalayas are running to meet sea and oceans far away. Our Rhinos and Tigers from Royal Chitwan National Park visit Indian Bengal tigers and have children together, Siberian birds travel thousands of mile to come to Nepal and have their babies born in Nepali forest, raise them and go back home, clouds from Bay of Bengal bring rain for our farmers in Nepal, we all are connected friends we all are ....

There is no such word like 'foreigner'. We all are from same family ! As our sages said thousands of years ago " Bashudhaiba Kutumbakam" which means the whole world is one family.

Peace, Light & Love

Suvas Agam

Writing finished at 13:30 

March 5th 2016