It may appear that I am the one who sings all these divine songs, compose all those soulful words and decorate it in beautiful notes of music. But I am strongly convinced that someone else from deep within is singing and is in charge. Many time the feeling of "yes it's my practice, my sweet voice, and compositions are the things which makes me the great singer and beloved of all audients" comes in my mind. And just to act polite I may say "thank you for appreciation but I am blessed by god to sing, its all up to god and that divine power" and more idealistic words may come out of my mouth. But when I think of Albert Einstein's quote "The most beautiful thing we can experience is the Mysterious", and I think to myself that, "this mysterious music which is beyond my mind is just the gift of mysterious, who is silently singing from my voice and is calmly writing from my hands." Here I shall elaborate more on the way we create work of art, institutional way of working in creativity, and self-reflection on music created by myself.
Last month, one morning I couldn't speak at all, my voice became so husky that I couldn't talk and make me understood, I had to speak low, I could hardly sing and it went for almost three week, with ayurvedic medicine I came into form again. Before this incident I was so confident about my vocal and music that I would obviously think my vocal and music is out there just like that and I owned it for granted but unknowingly when my vocal got interrupted that made me deeply understood that I may not even notice and suddenly, I am gone ! my vocal, my fan, my composition, my music all is just gone in a blink and I may not even notice. So this incident gave me a great insight and understanding that "I am not the one who sings, actually some one else sings from within and am just a Poppet, reciting what that divine extraterrestrial wants me to perform, recite or compose." All sort of scientific logic comes in mind until the situation is under control, but when the situation is out of control the first thing we do is pray with god, and just by putting hands together, bowing in front of some deity of our faith we feel so relived, almost half of problem goes away by praying and believing that; all is under that divine power's control and will be ok with help of that power.
Since time immemorial, many people have performed the different form of art. Many came and went away with no trace but very few legendary artists and their creation live for ever. Either Meera, Kavir, Nanak, Chaitanya, Hari Das, Baiju Bawara, Tukaram, Mozart, Beethoven, Pablo Picasso, Leonardo Da Vinci, Krishna Das, Sanatam Kaur, Kitaro, Yani, Ustad Nushrath Fathe Ali Khan, Abida Praveen and many more sage like being creation is praised and recited by and by through the ages. The same thread that can bind all these artists is the feeling of devotion in their creation and all of them devoted their creation in the name of divine power not just a materialistic beauty. They praised the divine energy which binds all the being in universe. And created art, literature, and music to uplift the consciousness of themself and other. Some time they created materialistic creation symbolizing the divine entity which was misinterpreted by peoples. And this kind of misinterpretations will also go on as all of us are not in the same level of understanding.
As all being in this universe are blessed with some special talent and creativity, but very few only come to know the blessings of divine. I believe by the mercy of many masters and divine entity, I am blessed to know that. I dream, we all know our-self and create art with the devotion to mother nature and humanity, which will enlighten our art and fragrance of art shall circles the universe. As Osho says " when we feel like holding few drops of water from ocean in our hand then we loose whole ocean but when we keep our palm open the whole ocean comes in our hand." So just by being open to unlimited possibilities we are taken care of and that's exactly what I feel with my music. When I think 'I am the one in charge', the whole music becomes so greedy and low in vibration but when I devote the music for that unconditional lover nature and let it create music or flow through me; just magic happens after that.
It's not that I am speaking so idealistically but if we create our creation or work of art out of unconditional love and harmony to share the positive vibration to all being, for-sure that creation becomes more eternal and the whole existence helps us to make it more eternal creation. As Paulo Coelho says in "The Alchemist" that "If you dream to achieve some thing so intensely and strongly through your whole being then whole existence will conspire the nature to support you to make your dream come true." So, I sing and write my songs to heal the world, to share my unconditional love, to make my self an enlightened being and enlighten the whole universe. Then of course the god, the nature, the extraterrestrial, sings through my being. And I am no more alone whole existence rejoices and sings with me. Hence, I conclude that I am not the one who sings, someone else is singing from within.Picture Courtesy : SADA @ Prakash Bhattrai